An unwanted guest ?

Perhaps not.

Your indecisiveness,
indolent permissiveness,
it breaks my heart,
to let you go.

.

when you're the only one I want to hold,
on my face, feel your hand so cold,
even your gelidity brings me warmth,
like a haven amidst the storms.
.
Your arms will be by home,
your mind is like a tome,
if only I had it in me to confess sooner,
I could have curbed this ever-changing tumor.
.
you know you have the Midas touch,
and I know it isn't much,
but it is enough for me,
we could go on a glistening spree,
.
To kiss your chapped lips,
to grab you by the hips,
to fulfill all your desires,
is all my heart aspires.
.
if you were next to me,
you would have me on my knees,
but you are so far away,
you've led me into disarray.
.
I feel so helpless now,
I just cannot allow,
for love to turn into hate,
I hope it's not too late.
.
I don't want to cause you pain,
but you keep driving me insane,
I can't let your smile go in vain,
so I guess I'll have to wait again.
.
hearing your voice is like a test,
can you feel my throbbing chest ?
I promise I tried my best !
but in your story I ended up..becoming just another guest..